Observation: Flawed Beauty

There’s a scar on the right side of her face where the crease of her lips stops and her rose colored cheeks begin. That white line stands out on her beautiful face like a crack on a porcelain doll. Her almost perfect figure is defected by one simple flaw. From the left, she’s a hurricane of pure beauty and the epitome of happiness, but the right paints a fragile figurine ready to break at the slightest of touch. If you ask, she will gingerly laugh and tell you “from the edges of the Popsicles she ate as a kid,” or that she was “once so happy she smiled until her mouth broke.” But for a tiny moment between the question and the answer you might just catch a glimpse of fear in her eyes.

Observation: That Girl

Her hair was a mixture of reds that resembled the more vibrant trees in autumn just before they lose their leaves. Her hair was cut like something straight from a comic book. Long on the sides and shorter in the back. The longest strands covered her ears and fell to her shoulders. Her nose was rounded to match the pudge of her cheeks. Her face wasn’t fat but childlike and enticing. One that you wanted to kiss but only at the right times for the right amount of time. Not too long as to overstay your welcome, but not to short that she might feel unwanted. Her body spoke a different language than her face. In her face alone she was cute, but in her body she was a beautiful young woman. Her curves were steep but smooth and demanded to be touched. But the clothes that wrapped up her skin kept those curves a secret. Her jeans clung to her legs tighter than an infant to it’s mother teet. The only mystery they left was what the tone of her flesh appeared to be under her painted on jeans. Her shirts the same; tight enough to see it all but still desire so much more. But the jackets she wore hid what was to be seen. She was a hormonal boys worst nightmare and wildest dream. Young or old, we all swooned for her. Old men would push up on their canes, straighten their posture, and puff out their chess hoping to get just a glance out of her. The younger boys would slouch more, sigh louder, and flip their hair aggressively hoping for the same. A gentle breeze through her hair to get a wif of her perfume, a glance to see those dazzling eyes, or a smile to stop your heart momentarily. These are the thrills boys seek when in the presence of That Girl. 

We were…

We were kids

We only cried when we didn’t get the blue Popsicle because blue was the best

And our moms couldn’t take us out in public because she was embarrassed by the dirt on our face

We had no idea what we wanted to be but that’s ok because we had all the time in the world

And our moms tucked us in at night to let us know we were safe

But even when she left we wished she had never gone

We were teensĀ 

And now we cry over movies and funerals

And when a boy or a girl rips the heart strings from our chest

And our moms buy us medicine because she is too embarrassed by the acne on our faces and the scars on our hearts

We still don’t know what we want to be but we have to hurry because we only have a few years left

And our moms rarely tuck us in at night so we don’t feel safe

And you wonder where has the time gone

We were adults

And now we don’t cry over anything anymore

Because there are no tears left

And our moms are too embarrassed because we wanted to be an artist or a writer

But writers don’t make much money so we have to be someone we don’t like

We only get phone calls from our moms on holidays and you never feel quite as safe as you ever did when she tucked you in

And all the while you wish you were gone

We are dead

And there is no more pain

And we don’t cry

No one is embarrassed to have known the dead

We no longer have to be anything

We are tucked into a box for the last time

And now everyone else cries because we are gone